Can't sleep, clowns'll eat me

While the reason why I'm lying in bed, staring at the ceiling, blinking isn't an extremely scary clown bed like Bart Simpson, I feel his pain. I have nothing to do tomorrow that's urgent so it's not like I have to be up at a specific hour, but I would have liked to have a good night's sleep.

The Boy is out of town visiting his family so I have the nice, big bed to myself. And even though I miss the warmth of a man next to me, I Love (yes, capital L) starfishing. You know, when you're in bed and just spread your arms and legs out to the point where you look like a starfish. It's so amazing and freeing.

And it's really frustrating that I can't enjoy it.

The reason I'm not in the wonderful land of sleep? I checked my work phone before going to bed and realized I have to tie up some loose ends tomorrow (today, really but it still feels like Saturday) for a things happening on Monday and while it won't take much time on my end, I wanted a dessert utopia of a weekend devoid of work.

I also have a few things stressing me out, but they are things I can't change - for the time being anyways - so I am trying my darndest to just stop thinking about them. Easier said than done for an expert, world class worrier such as myself but I'm going to try and see where that strategy will take me.

For now, I'm wide awake and will probably just watch some TV until I can get sleepy again. And I hope that won't be at nine o'clock at night.

UPDATE: I just bought a pair of boots online. Yeah. I need to sleep before I max out my credit card.

What if....

I've always wondered what my life would be like if I had chosen a different career path. Or even the same career path but a different specialization (so I guess a parallel trail).

There are just so many questions: Would I like it as much? Would I be farther along? Would I make more money? Have less debt? Would I have similar friends? More of them? Less? Would I still be in my home town? Paris?  Be a home-owner? Have a dog?  Have an iguana? Be married? Completely against relationships?

There are more but I figured I'd limit it to 14. (I care about the people). It's the stuff I think about when I'm having a jogging pants and sushi Friday night after a long and busy week.

I really shouldn't complain about where I am right now, but this seems to be the year of reflection for me. I guess I've taken to evaluating my life bit by bit and figuring out where to tweak it. Mostly because I've realised one really important thing this year: life is too short to not have stuff in it that you really want.

Like sushi and jogging pants on a Friday night. :)

Daylight saving what now?

That extra hour of sleep is amazing. Or at least the thought of it is. This weekend, not so much.

After going out with the Boy to celebrate his oldness, he went to sleep and I plopped myself on the couch thinking I'll catch an episode of Storage Wars (which I'm mildly obsessed with now) and head to bed. Not so much. After an hour of konking out on the couch, I dragged myself to bed but just couldn't sleep.

I not only began thinking about what I needed to do the next day but I started to reflect on my entire year - ups and downs and everything. That is not the nice, relaxing beach that I like to picture myself on as I settle into bed.

So despite a really fun weekend spent with friends, the Boy and myself (me time matters, too!), I was ZONKED come Sunday. So tired that I went to bed at nine last night! Now, um, not so much.

My body really needs to get on the sleeping regularly boat because if not, I'll be trying to find Storage Wars marathon to get lost in.

Testing 1, 2, 3

This is post to test the wonderful Blogger app. I'm hoping this will work! C'mon technology, do your thing!

Hope you all are enjoying the weekend!

Cheers!